Unforgetful Mistake

"Both lived happily ever after", it's sounds to be so graceful, but it's only good in story's not in real life. Here it's easy to get somethin that we desired for a long time, but hard to make sure that it would last with you forever.
For Ann, a complicated girl, just confused with herself, never sure with what she wants and not to forget she's engaged, she got into this relation for almost four years with a guy named Angelo, they were in a long distance relation,though in the begin everythin was working out finely, but with the time that passed,so was the memories that was fading from away her mind. She begin to feel lonely, helpless, jealous with her friends who were still with a healthy relation.
She made studies and other activities the medium of passing time, as they both had still few years to pass by and get them eligible for marriage.
Once she happened to go for a competition, where she met with a stranger- friendly smile, expressing eyes, but there she hardly paid much attention as she had to concentrate on her competition and that fellow was her competitor. His name was Mathew, thats all she knew about that guy.
There nothing workd she moved back her place, the things took a turn when she got a message from a strange and later she realised that it was the same person whom she had seen at the competition.She didnt ignored that message and carried on the conversation, she had cleared herself that she was engaged with a guy for quite a long time. But the first mistake what she did was didnt said this entry of a stranger to her guy.
No matter that fellow was a stranger and she hardly knew anything, but there was something that made them so comfortable with each other. Infact within a month they decided to meet each other, things went smoothly, but the thing that was pricking was that she was hiding it from her guy.
With time she got more closer not only with him but also with his family.
They met with each others for few more times and along with it increased their affections with each other, they became more closer and friendly than before, she started avoiding her guy, used to not speak much with him and used those time with this fellow.
Things became more worst on Valentines Day, when he proposed her, no matter she was already engaged but somewhere in her mind created a feeling for this guy. She felt a stronger connection with this fellow and got confused about the decision. Though she didnt said anything and that guy neither forced, but things werent as same as it was, somewhere this started pricking her relation with Angelo.
She started comparing between both the guy's, and somewhere she felt more closeness to Mathew, as somewhere she realised that they both shared same dreams about marriage, whereas she knew that Angelo was very practical person who had to work the whole day for getting a meal for day. He couldn't give much time to her, which affected the relation somewhere.
It was almost 3 month they met with each other, and she felt a need of getting into a decision of choosing a person and moving ahead as it was very difficult for her to be with two persons at a same time. Though she was not in an official relation with Mathew but she felt more happiness and completeness with him, which gave her a feeling of partness with Angelo.
Angelo is a person with too much of intellectual, he could feel the difference in her behaviour, in her touch, in her talks, but he was ignoring, but soon after three months he started cross- cheking her, as everytime he called she was on call with someone.
One fine day, they both went to a long discussion, where he asked whats the problem and why is this changes in her, after lot trials she finally asked for a break up with him. He was shocked to hear it from her, and didnt knew how to react.
It continued for days, he tried his level best to find out the reason for her such a shocking decision, but Ann never gave him proper answer, on top of that she was unable to decide whom to decide and whom not.
It was a day when he realised that there is someone in her life for which she's taken such a decision, after lot enforcement, she tells that about Mathew. He was speechless and couldnt understand what to do and what not to, he urged to speak with Mathew where he got to know the rest story. Infact the other day he came at her place to meet and decide for the rest. But till then he asked her not to talk with Mathew- nor msg nor call him.
It was early morning when they met, Angelo had reached the place they decided to meet and was waiting for her, the moment he saw her approaching to him, he started crying, forgetting everything around fell in her arms and cried loudly.
He expressed everything he had for her, infact said many things that he never expressed her. And this was the thing that she was waiting and didnt get in their relation, Angelo was a very straight person, hardly expressed his feelings to anyone, although he knew and could read others mind and eyes. They had dicsussion for few hours, till then Mathew kept calling her, msgs, calls, in all his msgs he just explained one thing- Leave Angelo and come to him and also said that she wont ever repent on her decision.
Whereas, Angelo had come to end up everything mutually, he wanted to talk with her, and know about the person she choosed so that she doesnt get in wrong hands. She said everything about her and Mathew, everything that happened in those three months. Finally it was left on her to decide whom to choose and whom not, watching him so broken without thinking much she just said that she would not leave him and would stop talking with Mathew.
She felt that everything would be fine and normal like before but things didnt seem so easy as thought, one week passed and she realised that somewhere she fell in love with Mathew which caused her lot a problem, every moment everything, made her to think about Mathew, she got into depression, a girl so jolly in her class started sitting alone with broken heart songs, which made her more into his thoughts.
Soon Angelo realised that everything's not proper how ever he tried and felt that she's not his anymore, so he decided to know whats her feeling, as she used to suppress her feelings in some corner of her heart. He tried many times to make her decide and that too just concentrating on her happiness and not anyone else. Everytime her mind made her feel that "No, Mathew's right person..." but she supressed her feelings..
After a week, she begin her day with the freshness, away from the lonlieness, everything went as perfect as it can, she even turned away all those songs that made her remind about Mathew, but evening suddenly Angelo asked her to speak with Mathew, or let all meet together, he wanted her to be away from the confusion and let her choose whats right for her.
She didnt wanted to talk with him again as she had ignored him completely and even asked him not to msg or call her ever. But only for Angelo she called, nothing so different both spoked very weirdly and ended the call, she didnt felt any such feelings for him.
But that evening Angelo suddenly turned low... He was talkin very weridly and asked for parting off, Ann couldnt understand what was the reason of this sudden thought, but he didnt revert positively, he started ignoring her calls, she couldnt understand whom to talk and she tried to talk with his room mate, he was also not picking her call. After sometime, Angelo calls and ask not to call his room mate, and when she ask the reason for not doing that as it was her brother like friend. Angelo confessed the reason of that person ignoring her calls, he explained that- he lost her trust when he came to know what she did with Angelo, and so didnt wanted to talk with her henceforth".
There was silence all around as she couldnt understand how to react, she accepted the decision of that person, and realised how cheap she became that she forget Angelo's love just for a person who just came recently. Forgot all those things that he did for her, everything , all the memories. But now that it was too late, she quit her trials for getting Angelo back in her life.
But before she ended everything, she repented for what she did to him, and also promised that she would never turn back to Mathew, as she realised that Angelo was behaving this weird way just to make her go away from his life and move ahead with Mathew. But it was too late, she was very much broken with everything, and couldnt take the curse of everyone who loved her.
She's lost everything Angelo who actually loved her, though she didnt realised in the beginning, spoiled Mathew's life.

Love or Respect

"Both lived happily ever after", it's sounds to be so graceful, but it's only good in story's not in real life. Here it's easy to get somethin that we desired for a long time, but hard to make sure that it would last with you forever.

For Ann, a complicated girl, just confused with herself, never sure with what she wants and not to forget she's engaged, she got into this relation for almost four years with a guy named Angelo, they were in a long distance relation,though in the begin everythin was working out finely, but with the time that passed,so was the memories that was fading from away her mind. She begin to feel lonely, helpless, jealous with her friends who were still with a healthy relation.

She made studies and other activities the medium of passing time, as they both had still few years to pass by and get them eligible for marriage.

Once she happened to go for a competition, where she met with a stranger- friendly smile, expressing eyes, but there she hardly paid much attention as she had to concentrate on her competition and that fellow was her competitor. His name was Mathew, thats all she knew about that guy.

There nothing workd she moved back her place, the things took a turn when she got a message from a strange and later she realised that it was the same person whom she had seen at the competition.She didnt ignored that message and carried on the conversation, she had cleared herself that she was engaged with a guy for quite a long time. But the first mistake what she did was didnt said this entry of a stranger to her guy.

No matter that fellow was a stranger and she hardly knew anything, but there was something that made them so comfortable with each other. Infact within a month they decided to meet each other, things went smoothly, but the thing that was pricking was that she was hiding it from her guy.

With time she got more closer not only with him but also with his family.

They met with each others for few more times and along with it increased their affections with each other, they became more closer and friendly than before, she started avoiding her guy, used to not speak much with him and used those time with this fellow.

Things became more worst on Valentines Day, when he proposed her, no matter she was already engaged but somewhere in her mind created a feeling for this guy. She felt a stronger connection with this fellow and got confused about the decision. Though she didnt said anything and that guy neither forced, but things werent as same as it was, somewhere this started pricking her relation with Angelo.

She started comparing between both the guy's, and somewhere she felt more closeness to Mathew, as somewhere she realised that they both shared same dreams about marriage, whereas she knew that Angelo was very practical person who had to work the whole day for getting a meal for day. He couldn't give much time to her, which affected the relation somewhere.

It was almost 3 month they met with each other, and she felt a need of getting into a decision of choosing a person and moving ahead as it was very difficult for her to be with two persons at a same time. Though she was not in an official relation with Mathew but she felt more happiness and completeness with him, which gave her a feeling of partness with Angelo.

Angelo is a person with too much of intellectual, he could feel the difference in her behaviour, in her touch, in her talks, but he was ignoring, but soon after three months he started cross- cheking her, as everytime he called she was on call with someone.

One fine day, they both went to a long discussion, where he asked whats the problem and why is this changes in her, after lot trials she finally asked for a break up with him. He was shocked to hear it from her, and didnt knew how to react.

It continued for days, he tried his level best to find out the reason for her such a shocking decision, but Ann never gave him proper answer, on top of that she was unable to decide whom to decide and whom not.

It was a day when he realised that there is someone in her life for which she's taken such a decision, after lot enforcement, she tells that about Mathew. He was speechless and couldnt understand what to do and what not to, he urged to speak with Mathew where he got to know the rest story. Infact the other day he came at her place to meet and decide for the rest. But till then he asked her not to talk with Mathew- nor msg nor call him.

It was early morning when they met, Angelo had reached the place they decided to meet and was waiting for her, the moment he saw her approaching to him, he started crying, forgetting everything around fell in her arms and cried loudly.

He expressed everything he had for her, infact said many things that he never expressed her. And this was the thing that she was waiting and didnt get in their relation, Angelo was a very straight person, hardly expressed his feelings to anyone, although he knew and could read others mind and eyes. They had dicsussion for few hours, till then Mathew kept calling her, msgs, calls, in all his msgs he just explained one thing- Leave Angelo and come to him and also said that she wont ever repent on her decision.

Whereas, Angelo had come to end up everything mutually, he wanted to talk with her, and know about the person she choosed so that she doesnt get in wrong hands. She said everything about her and Mathew, everything that happened in those three months. Finally it was left on her to decide whom to choose and whom not, watching him so broken without thinking much she just said that she would not leave him and would stop talking with Mathew.

She felt that everything would be fine and normal like before but things didnt seem so easy as thought, one week passed and she realised that somewhere she fell in love with Mathew which caused her lot a problem, every moment everything, made her to think about Mathew, she got into depression, a girl so jolly in her class started sitting alone with broken heart songs, which made her more into his thoughts.

Soon Angelo realised that everything's not proper how ever he tried and felt that she's not his anymore, so he decided to know whats her feeling, as she used to suppress her feelings in some corner of her heart. He tried many times to make her decide and that too just concentrating on her happiness and not anyone else. Everytime her mind made her feel that "No, Mathew's right person..." but she supressed her feelings..

After a week, she begin her day with the freshness, away from the lonlieness, everything went as perfect as it can, she even turned away all those songs that made her remind about Mathew, but evening suddenly Angelo asked her to speak with Mathew, or let all meet together, he wanted her to be away from the confusion and let her choose whats right for her.

She didnt wanted to talk with him again as she had ignored him completely and even asked him not to msg or call her ever. But only for Angelo she called, nothing so different both spoked very weirdly and ended the call, she didnt felt any such feelings for him.

But that evening Angelo suddenly turned low... He was talkin very weridly and asked for parting off, Ann couldnt understand what was the reason of this sudden thought, but he didnt revert positively, he started ignoring her calls, she couldnt understand whom to talk and she tried to talk with his room mate, he was also not picking her call. After sometime, Angelo calls and ask not to call his room mate, and when she ask the reason for not doing that as it was her brother like friend. Angelo confessed the reason of that person ignoring her calls, he explained that- he lost her trust when he came to know what she did with Angelo, and so didnt wanted to talk with her henceforth".

There was silence all around as she couldnt understand how to react, she accepted the decision of that person, and realised how cheap she became that she forget Angelo's love just for a person who just came recently. Forgot all those things that he did for her, everything , all the memories. But now that it was too late, she quit her trials for getting Angelo back in her life.

But before she ended everything, she repented for what she did to him, and also promised that she would never turn back to Mathew, as she realised that Angelo was behaving this weird way just to make her go away from his life and move ahead with Mathew. But it was too late, she was very much broken with everything, and couldnt take the curse of everyone who loved her.

She's lost everything Angelo who actually loved her, though she didnt realised in the beginning, spoiled Mathew's life.

Running throughout our life!!!!!!

From the beginning when we learn to talk, we are back of loads of desires and wishes. In school life, we desire to jump to college, where we need not wear uniform, and we are not bound with restrictions. Once we get into college, and we feel like working,where we would earn some amount of money along with independence. When we starts working and we are filled with loads of responsibilities and lack of everything. We marry and there we come across with more responsibilities,wife / husband.. child... There we desire for just having a retired life, where there wont be hardly any work, just peace all over. But that stage is not either as simple as it looks, we get into loads of pains and suffering, moving over the days with medicines and support of our infants, just desiring for a death.
Throughout our we keep running back of something or the other, where is the time to enjoy, from beginning we have read that Time Once Gone Doesn't come Back,yet why dont we implement it before we get too late. Why??
Mostly we find people running back for fame, hey i myself keep running, but the thing is what next,once we reach, is that what is the aim of your life??
You keep achieving your goals and there is no time to enjoy the beautiful life, then whats the use of such life. People keep earning, it's good, but they have no time to enjoy those earning, hey dont you feel its equal of a person who have nothing to spend.
What is the use of that money when you cannot spend with your child, you cannot enjoy your child's growth. What is??
It's never that late na, lets forget our past and start with a new pace..

I wish

I wish i was a child again,
Unaware of grief,sadness,hurt.
Where "Hurt" was when i felled and injured my kness.
Where "Sadness" was when i didnt get an apple.
Away from the pain of loosing someone truely dear,
Away from the grief of not achieving the ever growing desires.

I wish i was a child again,
I could have expressed my true feelings,
Pure and honest.
Not bothered with the thought, "what would he think if i say this"
As i would have never thought twice before i spoked,
Like a child who say whatever his heart feels like.

I wish i was a child again,
Who easily forgive and forget things,
Don't take memories alone with him,
Forgive and forget easily,
Never with ego or attitude.

I wish i was a child again,
with unconditional love.
Not jealous about anyone, nor measure his love.
He's loves equally to everyone.
His arms be open to embrace everyone,
Nor thinking of which relationship do you have with others.
Nor bothered which caste are you of.

I wish i was a child again,
who could cry and open his heart.
Without bothering what would people around him think.
I wish i could jump, laugh, cry, enjoy each and every moment,
Without thinking about anything, just feeling my emotion.

I wish i was a child,
who sleeps without any thoughts in his mind.
With lovely bedtime stories from his grandmother.
I wish i could hold my teddy bear and sleep along with him.
I wish i could sleep till the time i want,
not bothered about the office or anything.
Just excited about tom's cricket match or the cookies that mother would make.

I wish i was a child,
who play day and night,
not bothered of injuiring himself,
nor bothered of the complexion that would get spoiled.

I wish i could get my wish come true.
I wish.....